Men make me ILL

Well, one in particular at the moment; he makes me nauseous just thinking about him. He went off and found someone who might be the better version of me - younger, smarter, same ethnicity and our full names are so alike, it makes me want to throw up again and again. Such hurt I felt when I put two and two together. I felt like I was erased, nothing special about me to make me stand out, to make him remember what it was like to be with me, just me. I'm no one. I took myself out of the picture, out of that world of nothingness but my imagination, out of the equation completely.

I am so done with those who do not love and accept me for who and what I am. I thought I wasn't good enough, but I am, I believe in myself ~ again. In actuality, he is not good enough for me in more ways than one, and I know that deep down. I will no longer put my energy into someone who doesn't truly care about me, he just cares about himself - so be with yourself, by yourself in the end, without me. Everything I believed in, I thought I believed in you, no more, I am letting go of. You will not see that same look in my eyes again, and I know I am not easily forgotten.