Need to be Honest

I don't want to hold back and I feel myself holding back because I haven't told you everything. I'm preparing to do just that, and I'm nervous. I don't know how you'll react if it'll change things, but I have to be honest, I hope it doesn't change things because I don't want that look in your eyes when you look at me to change. Why do I have to be so darn honest. I feel my heart feeling heavy, and I just have to do it or else it feels like there's a weight on my whole body making it hard for me to stand straight, still, in balance. I care about you so I have to tell you. I want to be fair to you, and I want you to know because I would like to know if the tables were turned. You'll call later. I hope you understand.