This Year's Different

Today is Valentine's Day, and it was actually all right, the first one in a very long time - maybe ever - since I have my real love, Giuliano, now. He gives me a sense of confidence, a feeling of comfort knowing he is my man, my love, my one and only, I feel full and complete. Usually most Valentine's Day, I'd dress in red to overcompensate for my lack of love, walk around with my head down trying to ignore all of the red and decorations in store windows, and feel innerly bitter everytime I saw a couple happily together. But this time, even though my love is not physically here with me, those same decorations I used to look at in disdain filled me today, made me smile and reminded me of my love, filled me with hope, looking to the future. For the first time, I didn't dread this day - a real celebration of l*o*v*e.