Patience is Wearing Thin

Something changed within me slowly somewhere in the last month, in the last couple months, especially in the last couple weeks, and I am no longer willing to wait losing hope and believing you'll never get here. Been waiting at the edge of my seat since June, July, August, September...now October. I don't think so. I am no longer excited when I receive new communication because it just says more of the same over and over again, exclamation marks at first making it seem more sincere and urgent. I think you really mean what you say, but it doesn't do anything for me anymore, doesn't move me, doesn't twang one single heartstring. I am numb, I feel nothing, don't care. You've kept me waiting too long, I've stretched my patience beyond my normal limits, and now I don't know what it'll take for you to break through to me at this point. You're strong and you know what you want - you've got to come through and show me more than ever now.