Letting Go

An ex came back wanting more, but I had to nudge that door closed because there is someone else I am thinking of who is heavy on my heart and I've moved on. I have two, actually, one a bit more immediate than the other right now, next week. I'm already confused so I have to simplify. I'm treading unstable ground and am taking it day by day, letting time do its thing, letting it show me which way to go, who is right for me, either, both, neither, I'll see. I feel uncertain of what I'm doing, but I feel damn lucky to have the love/like of two who both have such wonderful qualities - what did I do to deserve this luck? The need to be honest still pangs at my side, but I will let the right moment come to divulge. Until then, I'm smiling at the world knowing that someone is thinking of me and wants to be by my side right at this moment - ok, maybe this entry doesn't belong on my "darker side" page.