Single No More

I am taken, off the market, closed for business. But you know what? Single guys must have a radar for this because they are coming out of wherever they were hiding before, cute boys in my building smiling at me...oy, leave me alone, I'm spoken for now. A male single friend of mine says men just know when you are more challenging in this way. So, if you're taken too, it's part of the game. If you're single, try to give off this vibe as much as possible.

Left Behind

Watching a marriage end, one that was seemingly so perfect, is ultimately heart-breaking and makes me think and wonder how it got to that point. A marriage that is meant to be in all of its capacity is not a prison, it still allows you to grow together with screen doors that let you still discover who you are over the years both with this person who is your partner in life and also by yourself because you still are your own person and can still maintain that. Marriage to me is no longer a scary term, it is comfort, it is so much that everybody needs to face this world, it is finding that special someone to not only balance off who you are but to strengthen those strengths you already have. That is beauty and if you are at all lucky enough to find that, you hold onto it and fight to keep it together. How can all of that be given up when you promised this person your life to work things out through thick and thin through the good and the ugly, how could you just decide one day that this isn't for you? Is nothing sacred enough that we keep our promises to each other to commit and hold out til the end? If misery and hopelessness replaces feelings of romance and bliss, then you let it become that way over time.

Not So "Real World"

This season of "Real World" in Key West is probably going to be the first one that I will not actually watch. Growing up through the years from my college days, I got hooked one way or another on each passing season of "Real World" in New York, Seattle, New Orleans, Philadelphia, Paris, Las Vegas and San Diego even though I got older and they stayed 18-24, there was some reason for me to watch - at least one of the people in the house was charming and appealing enough to watch, friendships and romances developed and unfolded or folded, and being a Sociology major, I was always fascinated by the dynamics of a house made up of such diverse people of varying attitudes, lifestyles and backgrounds. As I got older, I would not watch the beginning of each season thinking I had finally outgrown this show, but somehow in the middle of the season, I'd get hooked again and have to catch up on some marathon weekend. But not this season in Key West, no, I cannot find a reason to watch these kids - whine-y, self-centered, selfish, issued-riddled and drama-infested - there is no redeeming reason for me to tune in weekly. I am finally tuning out, sorry - try again next season, maybe.

Fu#4ing rain! I said I appreciated it a few blogs back, well fu*( that!! We have had so many days of rain now that feeling the sun on my face now is beyond recognition. Now I know there is no way I could live in Seattle, Portland or London - uh uh, no thank you...it is affecting the hearts and minds of us San Franciscans. We just need some damn sun, thank you very much. And my "friend" said, "Well, it's gorgeous where I am" - fu*! you, and I never cuss - but FU*! you even if you were just kidding and trying to playfully rub it in, I am beyond playing around and being light-hearted. If it does not stop raining soon, I will be clinically depressed in need of alcoholism rehabilitation and intervention - ha! Hee hee, heh heh...eee. ;)

Output Input

You get what you put out there. If you are negative, you'll get negativity back. I am sorry, but I just don't have the time or energy for people who only have time to complain about their lives, my weekends are too short, and my time is too valuable. Take your girlie-like backlash somewhere else to someone who has nothing better to do but listen to you and grow more negativity on top of their own. There is a reason why I haven't called you or sought out your company or conversation. Ooo ouch.

No More Impala

After a little more than two years of having my company car silver Chevy Impala, I was a little sad to see it go this morning as the ARI representative picked it up and drove it away. To date, I put 20,000 miles on that car driving all over the Bay Area, to Fresno and even up and down California for various site visits, tuned it up every 5,000 miles religiously, gassed it up for "free" on my company gas card through all the ups and downs of our California gas prices. It was a big boat of a car, one that I had problems parallel parking, whose big dashboard I peered over, whose radio would crackle in and out periodically, but it was "my" car for awhile. Good-bye to those big, round, red tail lights that kept me safe through the miles - it was a good ride, thank you.

25 & So Bitter

There is someone I know now who is only 25, yet she has job experience under her belt that makes her seem beyond her years, she's obviously smart, and has a strong head on her shoulders. But sadly, I find her quite bitter and very set in her ways already for her age. How is she going to be by the time she gets to my age? Let loose and live a little. Be 25 as it only comes once and then it's gone.

All in the Perspective

I went to the gym and saw a young woman there who only cleared my nose making her something like four foot nine. I thought life was tough from my perspective at 5 foot and a half inch with flats on amongst some of the towering people here in San Francisco. Although, in my silver years, I might be back down there looking at the world from her perspective. Hee hee.

Rain Rain

It won't stop I'm telling you, the rain that is. I stayed in all day on this lazy Sunday, then I decided to venture out in the late afternoon as I was beginning to develop cabin fever and thought it would be nice to have some people contact. I dropped off a movie, stopped by the mailbox, and made my way to the gym. It was actually a nice, rain, straight down, no wind to turn my umbrella inside out, I enjoyed my little trot to the gym. Watching the rain fall as I was on my back attempting crunches looking out the window, the rain actually looked nice and peaceful as it gracefully made its way to the ground down below.

Equally enjoyed my walk back home, and took a moment under my building front awning watching the rain come down to meet the puddles down below, peaceful, quiet, soothing. A bit brighter than normal at 7:00 PM as we pushed our clocks forward to "spring forward" an hour last night, the evening light enveloped me and gave me a feeling of hope. From that moment, I decided to enjoy this rain for what it is, cool, cold enough to warrant a cuddle under the blankets, my rotating room heater on, window shades open, enjoying the view as the rain drops drip down on my window panes.