I Know I'm Not PMSing

I started my period 2 days ago so I know I'm not PMSing anymore, but for whatever reason(s), I cry at the drop of a dime. Every and any little thing just makes me tear up - when I think about Greg and our love, when I think about what I've been through personally and emotionally over the last couple years, what I have planned for myself, us, our dreams and how things could so easily just fall apart, how fragile life is as we are all getting older - I just cry.

I'm going to meet my boyfriend's family very soon and I just cry thinking about it - I don't think it is out of nervousness totally, it's hitting me somewhere deep inside because I know something very real is about to happen to me in my life. I feel that life is about to take some major turns, it's all going to be beautiful, I can just feel it. And I just cry.

Maybe it's the holidays when you think about your family & friends, and it's coming to the end of the year when you think about everything you've been through, how much you've changed and grown, and how far you've come. Lately, I don't want to be the life of the party, I don't want to be especially sociable, I just want to be with the ones I care about most, who cares about the rest. Nothing else matters, which all the more just makes me want to cry. What is with all these tears? Maybe I will understand somewhere down the line. I will wait for that day.

There's Always One

There are those of us who sail through life sometimes smoothly, sometimes through choppy waters, but we sail forward nevertheless. Then, there are those who like to take the wind out of everyone else's sails to try to take us off course - to those, I know you are unhappy with the state of your life and it is no wonder you do not have more people who surround you who are loving and kind and giving. Karma will come back to bite you, and there will be no more sails for you to smash through because you will be forever alone in your own world of hurt. For your sake, I hope you see your ways and make a change.